Thursday, September 30, 2004
wat's tis... -_- still awake and studying for ptpp test.. 2 tests in 2 daes.. wth, anyway, i screwed up my uop paper.. damnit.. i dunno how to do liquid-liquid extraction.. sian diao.. lidat how to pass? for all my past semesters in np, i nver worry abt my marks n grade.. n i usually scrap thru them.. lol.. hai~ study study arh.. after 2dae, still mus rush PED.. i need to find a goal in life..
back to dreamland.. *snooze* *snooze* ZzZzZz.. =D
KeviN~ @ 1:46 AM
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004
it's 1plus plus in the morning... looking thru my UOP notes, studying, revising, the usuals b4 exams or tests.. oh man, hopefully i dun get temporary amnesia b4 the test.. dat costs mi a few marks during my common test.. *shucks* i find myself wif lots of stuff in my brain, some useful, some crappy, some *blusH* stuff.. supposing my hse is like my brain, den i tink i wil find lots of stuffs scattered all over.. man can utilise up to abt 10% of the total brain power, i tink wif all the farny tots in my brain, i'm using damn little of it.. less den 5% perhaps?? something is veri wrong wif mi.. i'm feeling tired everydae n everywhere.. i close my eyes n i can go floating off to dreamland. wtf, the usual slping hrs are nt enugh for mi? damn, wif the lethargic mood, i bcome damn unresponsive.. zzz.. could it b i'm trying to hide frm something in the real world n rather drift off to my dreamland, where everything and anything will go according to my wishes?
*apart frm the occasional nitemares*, nvm.. dat's abt all for now.. i'll continue tinking in my wonderland.. =D
KeviN~ @ 1:22 AM
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004
it's a tuesdae, my IS dae.. could haf gone hm early.. yet i'm still hanging out in sch with nuthin to do xcept slping while waiting for viking to finish his pump calculation. there's uop test tml, i could haf spent time studying instead of slping.. but jus couldn't concentrate.. useless.. -_-
been a few daes since i last blog cos kinda busy.. but even though busy still got time to catch a movie.. =D
the new police story by jackie chan is a good show.. indeed jackie chan is best doing action movies.. now waiting for resident evil to be screened.. hopefully dat is also gd.. =)
ok, enugh for now..
KeviN~ @ 1:08 PM
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Saturday, September 25, 2004
birthdae card frm my little cousins.. "kinda touched"
KeviN~ @ 1:20 AM
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24/09/2004
it's my birthdae.. older by a year now.. going to ns soon.. spent my morning and afternoon in sch doing PED.. damn sian but no choice, gotta hand up soon... anyway, viking wasn't feelin well so he left early.. no point staying in sch if u can't concentrate on doing ur stuff, so i had an excuse to go hm early too... yeah!! cos kinda bored being alone in sch.. =(
went out in the evening wif frens, go walk walk, c gals, tok cok, "arh the stuffs.." everyone is busy wif projects and stuffs, so hadn't been able to gather and tok dat often.. hai~ anyway, we chit-chatted til midnight, so i jus got hm.. almost missed the last bus.. if missed, den haf to walk hm liao.. -_-"
hai~ would haf been a lonely birthdae if not for my frens, xie xie ni men.. =D
KeviN~ @ 1:20 AM
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Sunday, September 19, 2004
ook, after much deliberation, i've decided dat the time is now, =D "study-time"
hai~ no more As for mi, due to my CT marks being screwed.. hopefully i can get Bs ba.. those reading my bloggie, pls remind mi if i'm slacking.. lol
abt my star sign: Libra
They are the peacekeepers of the zodiac and weigh all sides and situations equally as such they often have difficulties in making hard and fast decisions. Libra needs attention and the company of other people and when deprived of that they can sink into a very real depression and lose their inspiration. Libras are all around charming and good natured even when they don't want to be. When a Libra has allowed the scales to become unfairly tipped they often lash out explosively. They often are hesitant to speak their likes and dislikes and it is important to coax them into speaking their minds. Libra's sometimes fear making wrong choices and upsetting others, and this can really effect their emotional stability. Librians love praise, appreciation, adulation and have fine relationships with the opposite sex. You bask in people's approval and give of your best in such situations. This makes you gullible, and occasionally susceptible to flattery.
KeviN~ @ 11:57 PM
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Friday, September 17, 2004
*geez* got feedback dat my posts r like essays.. oops, sry.. jus had lots of crap to type. still up & awake, rushing my PED. time is running out, n my engine is jus warming up, wth.. =) old n rusty liao.. yeah.. birthdae is coming, *whoopie* getting closer to 21yrs old, den my lao pa lao ma wun complain so much abt mi.. but den it will mean i'm lao le.. had to push awy a lunch appointment wif my aunt, hai~ due to project.. no free meal.. kinda bcoming a spendthrift tis sem, spending more den i save.. n i'm not feeling well.. mentally & physically.. duhhhhhhh.. haf those kind of mood swings, feeling happy & "high" tis moment & depressed another moment.. plus i haf tis slight fever.. feeling feverish.. *shiver* back to PED.. cya..
KeviN~ @ 1:42 AM
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
2dae was kinda sucky dae.. lol.. had claz at 8 but woke up at 8.. in the past, i would jus get a mc n skip the whole dae, but *gasp* i got changed & rdy for claz in record-breaking time, was planning to sneak in at 9... at least i will get 1 hr of lect, but wtf, when bus 156 turned out frm bishan towards macritche, there was a traffic jam.. i was like cursing and swearing to myself while waiting for the traffic jam to clear.. den after changing bus to 157, zzz, another jam at adam rd.. i knew i was screwed, there is no way i'll b in np by 9.. finally reached the claz at 9.45am.. no point going in, so i waited outside the lect hall since i was meeting garhein later to go qway shop for his shoes.. den was told, lect at 2-4 cancelled.. -_-" duhh.. in the end, came to sch for 1hr tut, lol..
otw to qway, discussed wif viking abt proj, i believe dat we can do it, well, both of us r geniuses, rite? wat in the world can affect us? anyway, at qway.. garhein and viking shopped for their shoes while i, wif my roaming eyes, was jus scanning for cute gals.. lol!! anyway, they both bought nike shoes & i was abit tempted to get a pair of adidas 3-stripes shoes.. $_$
dat's abt all i did tis morning and afternoon.. jus got hm anyway, catch a movie wif my grp of frens.. THE TERMINAL.. wow, dat was a great show, hilarious but also kinda touching.. abt tis dude whu came to new york & find himself being declared wifout a nation of orgin due to a war in his country, wat he did & wat was done to him as he struggled to survive in tis foreign place..
it's amazing dat life is able to generate different kinds of problems for ppl, which serves as memories and xperience fo them.. allowing them to grow wiser n mature.. supposing i can live til 80, i'm jus abt to finish my 1st quarter in my life. perhaps wat my dad saes is true, i'm still tender and immature. my inner self is in a mess.. i'm like a porcupine, curled up wif my spikes pokin out protecting myself.. i keep remembering the past & holding on to them.. in my memories, i keep all my failures, all my mistakes, all the scoldings & comparisons.. my aunt tells me to let go.. to forgive & forget.. easily said den to be done.. i'm tired of all the negative tinkings and words.. i wan to be treasured..
okok, enugh of tis.. i mus b damn tired.. cos i dun understand wat i'm typing already.. LOL.
KeviN~ @ 1:23 AM
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
dear blog, here i'm again writing at tis time of the dae.. it's almost 1am.. i'm.. i'm... i'm.. lol.. mental block. jus a recap of my damn boring dae.. woke up, go sch, go claz, sit arnd while waiting to do project, do project, celebrated cos did some parts of the project, got warned by librarian.. DAMN.. GIF ME WARNING LETTER LAR.. IT'S NOT AS IF I'M THE ONLY ONE WHU MADE SOME NOISE.. ZZ.. WHU THE HELL CARE IF SHE GIF MI WARNING LETTERS ANOT, I'M USED TO IT.. lol.. ok, it's our fault, we kinda blast the music loud.. but the songs are nice mah.. =(
ok, back to the boring life.. after being warned, continued doing project, den go for dinner wif garhein, carol n pj.. was feeling alrite til garhein had to remind dat time is running out.. -_- few more weeks to xams.. 13 daes to hand up of project.. few more weeks b4 we go for attachment.. oh man, i will miss u all.. * bad mood *
anyway, while on the NEL train otw hm, i saw tis dude wif his korean gf.. omggggggggggggggggggggggggg.. she is so chio.. bth i need to find a korean gf too.. although they might b made of plastics, but well, they look gd rite? look gd enugh liao?
everything mus come to an end...
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... and a new beginning with each ending..
KeviN~ @ 1:23 AM
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
wasn't feeling veri good 2dae.. n want to apologise to carol n pj regarding dat crush007 email.. dat was meant as a joke n not to pry out ur secrets.. =)
i'm sry if i offended u 2 in anyway.. =(
" kevin, y u despicable...!!" "omg... i really didn't mean to... pls 4give me.. =( "
zhen shi de, wo de xin li dao di zai xiang she me? dui ta de gan jue jian jian de bian dan, nan dao yi qian de gan jue zhi shi infatuation ba le? xin zhong yi jing bu zai you suan suan de gan jue le.. shi zhen de fang qi le ne hai shi zi ji bian zi ji? wo shen shen de xiang guo, jue de ying gai shi zhen de fang qi le.. bu shu yu ni de dong xi, ni ying ying qiang zhe yao, dui ni dui ta dou mei you hao chu.. kuang qie ta chong lai dou dui ni mei gan jue, zhi yi qie dou shi ni yi xiang qing yuan ba le..
" choice not chance mould ur destiny, watever happens is the result of ur choice.. "
" opportunites r like locked doors, u haf the key but u can't find the right door yet.. "
" stop whining n complain, everyone haf problems but it's the way u handle ur problems dat make u different frm others.. "
" u asked y i like u, it's hard to gif a definite ans, but wat attracted mi to u was ur sporty personality, ur confidence & the way u presented urself.. tis r qualities dat make u special, one n only, nver to b replaced.."
KeviN~ @ 1:46 AM
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
for those whu have been reading my blog, gif my PED project grp a rnd of applause.. *clap clap clap clap clap* yea, we haf finaaally lift off, everything is slowly in motion.. we can do it, woot.. spent 1 whole afternoon in the library doing the project, cold, tired but felt damn "high".. =)
*blah blah blah*
wth, gotten teased by marius and the others in the project rm.. i'm so embarassed.. *blush*
after dat tiring afternoon, lol, i stayed on in np n pei my frens go tis ece society gathering.. yes i noe, sibei bo liao.. "kevin, u r mad arh??" well, i veri jiang yi qi de, so hang arnd til abt 9 den left for hm.. now eyes gonna shut le n zzz.. tml still going to sch do the fyp.. hopefully more effort put in = better results ba
KeviN~ @ 1:17 AM
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Friday, September 10, 2004
alrite, it's time for my blog.. 2dae is site visit & claz outing dae.. =)
went to kemin industries (asia) pte ltd, which was situated at woodlands. had a brief tour of the site, learnt quite alot ( at least i look as if i learnt alot.)
after which, we went for claz dinner, went to causeway pt n ate pizza at pizza hut, plenty of laughter n fun, xcept.... -_-, garfield was sitting across mi n was trying act cool n b anti-social.. pls dun do dat, i'm the one supposed to do dat, nt u.. lol.. mayb he got sumthin in his mind so well, let's jus leave him at dat... after eating, tok some jokes, some kinda lame but damn interesting.. well, den was supposed to go hm but went to orchard wif kelvin, gar hein n siew yong. kel n garhein wanted to go try their luck at the naruto collectable machine..
had the pics taken 2dae attached... =)
p.s: regarding the "she " n the "her", -_- u 3 noe whu she is le, hai~ all thos farny tok on the train abt her n regarding posting the qn to her again, i... i... will consider, c how ba.. yi qie sui yuan..
tada..
kelvin, gar hein n siew yong at wheelock place
tinking abt food.. "headache"
dr vivien lim
peijun n carol
kinda blur but the rest of the claz having mass discussion
3 cool dudes waiting for food
at causeway point, deciding where n wat to eat..
viking at site visit
KeviN~ @ 10:18 PM
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
it's another dae in my life.. deadlines are getting closer and closer, "i'm so scared.." nah.. i jus undergo a state of brainwashing.. bks on entreprenurship n creative tinking, lol.. a sudden interest in them, more positive thinkings & less negative thoughts. well, i tink i'm prepared for anything ahead, omg.. i tink, damn... need to cfm.. -_-
anyway, i was on my way to the bball court where i usually plae when.......
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O_O!!!
i saw tis gal which i met while working part-time in a factory.. oh man, she seems like she haven changed much.. *more seductive perhaps??* lol.. can still remember it.. dat was like last december? how i fell head over heels over lin jun.... -_-
zzz.. nver tot i would fall for sumone older den mi.. nah, i'm sure dat's jus infatuation.. anyway, she didn't c mi, & i wouldn't noe how to react even if she saw mi.. *blush* i'm so shy.. =(
ok.. dat's abt all, will update if i got new tots.. =)
KeviN~ @ 11:16 PM
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Saturday, September 04, 2004
blah.. blah... blah.. headache arh.. well.. at least, we haf started to get PED moving although the developments are still quite slow..
*falling asleep..* "zzzz" *snooze*
surprise!! i'm going to np later to do project on a sat. LOL, tinking back abt last time, i would dread to stay back after sch on a normal weekdae, yet now i'm coming back to do stuff on a weekend.. although i dun quite like it but.. LIFE SUX & U WUN GET WAT U WAN!!
damn.. time passes so fast. i'm in 3rd year now.. going into attachment, ns den soon out to work. was writing my resume when i realised my time at np was a waste.. no cca, no gd results. compared to the others in my LT, i'm sure my grades belong to those at the bottom. NEEDA BUCK UP ARH.. n i'm feeling sad, scared abt separation, scared abt losing contact wif my clazmates.. they haf been so much fun to be wif n i jus realised it tis sem, shldn't haf spent 2 semester skipping clazes.. i'm nt shuai, not veri interactive too, hai~ haf tis feeling dat i will fade frm their memories.. * oh pls god, dun let tis happen. =( * if dat happens, i noe i got nobody to blame but myself.
i'm a librian.. i like balance in my life.. n i require partnership.. * sad, lousy & lonely*
KeviN~ @ 8:11 AM
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Friday, September 03, 2004
time to blog again.. lol. kinda bored tis lonely nite, therefore i spent my time idling at hm, surfing the net.. came across tis webbie again.. www.xiaxue.blogspot.com. whoa, lots of interesting stuff in there.. anyway, i've decided to buck up AGAIN... =(
had my ptpp test 2dae, saw the questions n i almost fainted.. woot, i saw it b4, i noe i noe, yea, can do.. sibei song.. den -_-" , omg.. memory lapse.. wtf... __ i racked my brain, rolled my eyes, stretched my neck, nope.. no ans appeared.. attempted a trick like garfield did, took a nap hoping dat subconciously, my brain will gif mi my ans. o_O!! woke up feeling groggy wif little time to spare.. =( sadded.. i shld haf grabbed the chance n sat bside those whu haf studied instead of acting zhen yi n sat alone.. ANTI-SOCIAL ARH?? anyway, i got out of the rm, later sibei sad.. the others copied abit n noe the rest.. mi? i nver copy cos can't c, wrote crap on the paper cos i nono the ans.. sibei fucked-up..
met my fren at da busstop arh, lots of chio bus.. o_O hai~.. mi, jus lonely lonely nia.. bth..
damn, mental block again.. PED PED.. mus hand up soon le.. haven even done much.. dead..
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KeviN~ @ 1:55 AM
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
got my results for the common tests 2dae.. hai~ didn't do well.. well.. i kinda xpected it. i haf to bear the blame.. shld haf spent more time revising instead of plaeing.. shld haf done better.. shld haf, shld haf.. my life is in a slowly falling apart or is it in a complete mess already? i can feel it but i dunno where to start mending or pick up the pieces.. as i sat in claz 2dae.. suddenly realised i broke another promise. "promises can b broken, hopes can b dashed, wat do i haf left?? Nuthin...!!" i really did wan to do well at least for tis final sem, but c wat happened.. i jus slacked again.. mayb my mum, my teachers are correct. i'm jus plain lazy. -_-"
anyway, back to as i sat in claz 2dae, felt dat i need to prove myself.. haf tis feeling my way of doing stuff and my appearance left a bad impression in her mind.. wanted to show dat i'm gd, or perhaps one of the best.. but damn, i nver prove myself, instead it seems i keep showing my lousier side.. i can't gif her a definite ans.. i always seem to do the wrong thing whenever i'm wif her, my judgement sux.. omg.. wat value do i haf left? i'm worthless..
my fren reminded tis phrase frm a show and it seems to suit mi n her.. " she's like a swallow flying in the sky, n tis whole sky belongs to her. u r jus a small fish, swimming in a small pond. u n her belong to 2 different worlds but r u willing to jus let destiny lead u by the nose ever since u were born n gif her up?" indeed we seems different.. our personalities are like poles apart.. but perhaps opposite attracts dat y i will fall in love wif her.
hai~ it's tis time again dat i start to go crazy n tok abt loving her, liking her n watever crap.. my frens are kinda annoyed wif it.. lol.. oh man.. studying for ptpp.. it's alot of pages n i'm trying to cramp it into my brain.. hopefully i wun screw up.. i can't afford anymore screw-ups.. i need to clear up the mess.. as soon as possible.. oh ya.. i got a new hair-cut.. rofl.. kinda like tis kind of hair-style.. =)
"mayb we can't b 2gether, but i'm thankful for the moments dat u stood wif mi, n gaf mi words of support n confidence.. "
KeviN~ @ 12:51 AM
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